I will take steps back to take leaps forward

My journey consists of a lot of backward and forward motions. It’s an endless cycle. To progress, I have to go backwards. I have to go backwards, revisit the tough times and the thoughts they brought and use them to influence the future.

I’m an emotional guy. I’m happy to admit this. When I read through ‘my story’, I do shed a tear. I shed a tear thinking back to whom I once were, and the person I am today. I’m freaking proud at who I am and yet, some days I go into this emotional turmoil, that brings back the past.

The past recalls times I dare to think of, yet, I have to go backwards to go forwards. I need to go back to a time where I was struggling, either mentally or physically to build a much stronger frame. To build a frame that bounces off the past and solely focuses on the future.

I know where my future lies. I know what I’m meant to do with my life, and that’s to help others. Someone asked me recently why I put so much time into what I do, and it’s to see a smile. I love seeing others smile and knowing I’m doing good.

I want to know my actions are having the impact I want and I’m willing to do what I have to do to make them happen. I’m willing to break myself down for a day to have weeks of motivation. I’m happy to enter a sad state to elevate my passion for helping others.

Yes, helping others takes a lot of time, and even the smallest of actions can still take a considerable chunk out of my day, but I wouldn’t change it. I wouldn’t change the journey I’ve been on, as I’m learning everything has a purpose. Everything has a purpose and this means both ups and downs.

Both ups and downs have a purpose. I see it in a way, it’s up to us to decide how we use it. I could forget my past, I could forget my childhood struggles, but I’m not the kind of person to let things go.

Why let things go when I’m in a position where I can change lives? I will change lives by sharing my story! I want to help others in their darkest moments and be their source of inspiration!

Inspiration comes from those who’ve lived, experienced and conquered. I’ve lived my entire life not knowing my path in life and how my past can be utilised, but I’ve found it!

I’ve found my calling in life!

I’m meant to share my story to the world! I’m meant to take a few steps back each week to take leaps forwards the following week. I’m meant to beat myself up to know the person in the mirror is who I am.

I love helping others and if that means sharing personal stories; some being TMI, then so be it! This coming week, I’m sharing how I feel ready to conquer a 20-year fear! Yes, you thought my childhood MH struggle was my untold story, something was missing….




5 thoughts on “I will take steps back to take leaps forward

  1. I really admire your ability to be so open online, and to allow yourself to be so vulnerable. It’s such a rare thing to see a blogger being open about their mental health, especially a male blogger! This blog post–and a few of your others, actually–have definitely inspired me to look at my mental health as a journey I will one day be able to leave, instead of something that will define my life forever. Thank you!


  2. It’s so touching how heartfelt and raw this is. I really felt your emotion through throughout the post. I always remember a graph to success my mum once showed me with the line wiggling all over the place but always pointing up.

    Sophia xx | http://sophiawhitham.co.uk


  3. I really admire how honest and raw this is! Thank you for sharing!

    Kirsty | The Monday Project | themondayproject.co.uk


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