First of all, let me say that I am very honoured to be part of Johns New to Blogging Series. Coming into the world of blogging as a Newbie can be very daunting. You have no idea what you are doing and it is easy to lose hope and give up, but thanks to bloggers like John, who openly reach out a hand. It make all the difference. I truly believe there is enough success for everybody. There are no quotas or limitations on success, life doesn’t say ‘ Oh thats enough success for this year, no more’. There is enough for everyone and helping each other reach it is the best way to go.
So let me introduce myself. I am Kylie. I am an Aussie girl from Perth Australia, now residing in Aberdeen Scotland. I am bi-lingual French and English though only blog in English for the time being. Here is my story.
I started blogging back in 2014, but when I say blogging it is not like what I do today. I got a tumblr site and put up a picture once every blue moon and didn’t expect anyone to actually look at it. I never thought to take it seriously at that point and to be honest I didn’t even know why I started it.
Looking back I think I started it to fill a void. I was about to give up my career as a fashion buyer in Paris to follow my boyfriend to Scotland. A decision that was very hard for a career driven and independent person like myself. But I knew that if i wanted this relationship to move forward I needed to do it.
Fast forward to today, and I have been in Scotland for 3 years, have a 1 year old little boy and am to be married in July. I guess it was a good decision.
However when I moved, I struggled. I had moved to Europe from Australia when I was 20 and had built a life and career from scratch. I had started a whole new life from my previous one in Oz and was very proud of my achievements. So when I gave all of that up to move to Scotland it opened up a whole can of worms.
I usually tell people that I left Australia to travel the world and be adventurous, and in way I did. I think I even convinced myself that. The truth is I ran away. I hated who I was and the memories I had in Australia. I wanted to be somebody else. I wanted to start fresh. And that is what I did.
My father committed suicide when I was 12 years old. I wish that I could say that I had been prepared for it given he had attempted it 6 times before, but I really wasn’t. I still remember being woken up by my mother in the morning to tell me my father was dead. I still remember the shock and disbelief. But I only spoke to him yesterday?
The thing about suicide is that it rips you apart. It rips everybody apart. Losing a loved one by any means is horrible, but suicide does irrevocable psychological damage to everybody involved. The pain doesnt end with the person dying, it lives on forever. People get angry and nasty in their grief, they point fingers and pass blame to try and understand it, to try and rid themselves of the guilt festering inside of them. It lingers at the back of everything you do, this cloud that seems to follow you everywhere. The what ifs, or should haves consume you. So I left. I moved to Europe.
As I grew up I always felt like I had a calling, a life mission. That life had dealt me this hand to use it to help other people. This feeling always nagged at me but I never really listened to it. How can I help other people? I wasn’t exactly there perfect specimen. Though the feeling still nagged at me and I started to notice that those around me tended to confide in me and ask my advice. It came to a point when someone said to me, Kylie you should write a book. That was a lightbulb moment for me.
After that was when I decided to sit down and write. I wrote honestly, and that nagging feeling started to feel right, as if that feeling was nodding its head and saying FINALLY! I wrote about what I was feeling and didn’t bother trying to hide or be correct. So my blog Confidentlykylie.com was born. I started taking blogging seriously in January 2017 and it has been amazing the response and growth I have had in these last few months. I have been published in numerous sites and had a blog post featured in Scotlands No1 magazine. There are times when I am in despair and lack confidence but I have learnt to keep trying.
At the moment a lot of what I write about is lifestyle and about my new life as a parent, but i do not consider myself a parenting blog. I am still learning and so far a lot of my struggles at the moment have been about my life as a mum. I am slowly learning to open up about other things outside of the parenting world and eventually hope to a wider audience.
I chose Confidently Kylie because I no longer want to be someone else. I want to learn to be confident in who I am, no matter what stage of life, no matter how stupid or unsure I feel. My blog is about being honest, writing about what I feel and not trying to fit in and be something I am not. I want to help others through my experiences so that they too can go on a journey with me to be confidently who they are.
Check out my blog www.confidentlykylie.com. Come and say Hi, I am always up to meet new people and any feedback is welcome.